responsibility

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 9:07 PM

tobe honest, i am so busy today but still the phone in my hand. thinking of you will not reply me at the same moment, so i didnt reply u too. but as usual i read it many many times.
i didnt reply it not because i will not reply, but because i think you will read then reply only at night and its also almost late midnight. i could not expect you to reply me at school, that is the little possibilities. i was dissapointed, but i have responsibility to let my bf knows my condition right now. so then i need to tell him.

and also i understand our relationship. i dont blame you honey, i love you and also you know me. we are the same person, whatever happen in our relationship i will not let you go. even smetimes i got angry but it will not change anything, i still wait you. i will let you go if only i could not take care of my heart any more.

yup, i understand that you r busy, but it is your problem to take control of everything, if you want everything runs well in your hand you should manage them well, and also me in your planning. it is useless if you try hard for the school and also the ticket but finally we break up. i dont want it happen of course. i hope it will not. and of course this small problem will not cause that break up :P

it is the same thing to the basic model i made. i make effort of anything and its far far away from my goals in life, i dont get happiness in it, then when i make the model i realized what exactly i want. that also makes me go home to fulfill my mom's wish. my goal is to make them happy, so i forget everything in Jakarta and follow what my heart tells.
the next goal for the rest of my life is to serve my family (husband and children)you probably one of the candidate. you are in the first list right now. because of that i put everything related to you in important folder.

i appreciate your effort right now and never mind that you are still student. i also dont have eagerness to get married soon. i think i will not wait also for 2.5 years. but that is a further time. i can not figure what happen for the next 10 minutes, why i should limit my self for the next 2.5 years problem. only God knows.

sincerelly your love via