how to fix this?

Tue, 30 Sep 2008

i am so not patient person as you know.i actually will not tell this that i really check my inbox through my mobile many many times, only minutes counting. because its too easy to check it, i dont have to open my laptop and connect to the internet, so thats make me stupid by checking it all the time as i know you will just reply me at least 3 times a day. but why i am such a stupid person checking it too much.

i spend also my money to open it from my mobile, i dont mind for that even though i see nothing is there but i feel satisfy to make sure it was not there. but still gambling who knows it will be there after few second. seconds..!!

its really not fair to me. how to fix this.you know my time, indonesian time, dont you ever think that i dont know ur time. i know when you wake up, when you get back from school, that also your internship appears in belanda newspaper, and also searching leewarden city in google earth. what am i doing???? tell me! am i crazy enough?

how to fix this? how to ignore u at any moment?

the phone is there, the mobile phone is in my hand 24 hours, and also the willingness to read your mail in it, there is no obstacle unless the provider is broke. and even though i just close down my laptop after connecting to the internet few minutes ago and go to my bed, i still again check my inbox through it whether few seconds ago you sent something... silly!

i am crazy.

and i hate u!

i understand you are busy, but it doesnt mean you can deny i am here. feel it geart. how do you feel if you open ur mail and its not there... i feel it hundreds time. i need you to fix this. this is not the right time i try to ignore u or you forget me for a while. i had try to be not selfish and always replying your mail at the same time u sent it, event just to say three words. and i will warn to continue later.and also you know i will not sleep and let your mail at this midnight without replying it. dont u think u also want to read mine> event only nonsense talking.

i just want to say

i love u and pls fix this.