RE: how to fix this?

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 2:04 PM

Via, Via, Via, how can i fix this problem. I realy dont know how to fix it. I do not have internet on my mobile phone and in my own house i illegaly tap in on someone else his internet. On school i have internet but not during class. When im meeting someone i dont ask to use his/her computer. I cant reply you all the time.Im a person how dosnt like to use email or mobilephone to talk to someone. I like to see the person when im talking to him/her. This is new for me but im trying to do my best i can.

When i email you i want to send you quality and im not emailing you becouse of quantity. I realy love you Via but i also have to my things. You are in my mind all the time and dont be scared that i will forget about you already. Im still planning to go to indonesia, but becouse of school i have to wait. Its disturbing that i havent booked plain tickets yet becouse i know they get more expensive by the day. The only problem is i have to wait for my school to give me the green lights. I cant book tickets if i dont know for shure if i can go. Also i will not allow myself to book tickets for just two weeks of hollyday. Its just to much monney to use for two weeks. We just have to wait and let god decide if he wants us to be together.

Experience tells me that i have bin in many heat situations but it always ended well.This is my first longdistance relationship and sometimes i dont know what to do. Im used to see my gf several times a week but now its not possible. I already sayd to you i cant realy offer you anything to you. Im student and my future is not shure yet. Still we chose to do this couple thing and even now i know i made the right decision. You are worth the waiting and im still thinking of Via all the time.

Everyday when i wake up i wish you are the one i wake up next to. Everyday i hope something happens that i just walk out of my door and see you standing there. I think you have the same feelings for this bule but reality tells different. When i wake up you arent there and when i walk outside my door you will not stand there. It hurts every day and this is what you are feeling right?

Well i have the same problem and the only thing i can do about it is to work hard and show my school im worth it to go to indonesia.I dont think the frequency of emailing you is the bigest problem you have but the problem is that you are loosing me becouse the last two days my emails wernt that frequent. I know my emails arnt that frequent the last two days and i hate it that i cant make anny new voice records right now. But we just have to survive this for a moment.

If i got it all wrong my baby just ignore my email and forget all about i wrote just now. Im gonna take a shower and check my email afterwords.

I love you honey,

Xx