Re: ^_^

Tuesday, November 25, 2008 7:45 PM

Hi dearest,this is the email i should send earlier...
now i have to go to cybercafe (warnet)

It’s a good thing u tell me lot of story. I just hope that everything will run well as we plan.
Hmmm…as I said, I don’t want to talk about ur plan to go to Indonesia . I am scare to imagine if someday in the future this whole plan is just a story. I will just listen and wish everything in control honey. I hope u can manage them well. You are a gentleman, ur life will be in ur control. It is not school to control you or elder commission, or friends, or bureau… it is you who has to control ur life. it is you when to decide to go or to do this and that. I will just support u.

are you still in team? That is the question u didn’t answer. U told me u want to quit that pain ball and join the highest level at other team.

I will consider if you want to apply to be my staff :P are you experienced enough?

Btw, I never plan to get a better shop among my brothers and sisters, it is my good luck. My fate. it is really easier for me to leave the shop now and also to sell phones. We can move here and there and leave the shop and entrust with the other sister or brother. And also half of the phones in my shop are endra’s stock. And it is really helping if my shop near to him. It is easier to confirm the lower price because the phone belongs to him and also I can ask some help to check phone when I want to buy it. (this is the first step to learn how to be my staff)


But behind this luck and happiness I also have some trouble forward.
Wanna know??????

First problem is, I have lots of debt from any loan. That is for certain expenditure.
The others are;
- There are lots of new shops open in the same time, almost ten as I surveyed after this lebaran, it means more competitors.
- This is rainy season and make some people don’t want to go out.
- The sales are lower than before for almost all shop and the cost is fixed. Its also happened to my brothers and sisters and also me. It declines almost half. I just got break even for the monthly cost. Hiks
- The plaza Andalas has problem in financial and has debt to State Electricity Enterprise about Rp. 4 bilion. It makes trouble for the future. There is rumor they will close the plaza for 6 days to solve this problem. This debt has been mention in National TV and Newspaper. It cutting the profit but not the fix cost, L

But they didn’t mention about the loss of power down.
The power down is rather often after the election. Usually their reason is ‘lack of water in lake’, as our power resource is water lake and its rainy season now. (I don’t know whether my statement is correct, is there any co-relation with this system?)


That are some reasons that I am not in the right time to open a new one. Actually I should consider when is the right time, but I can not wait any longer anymore. So.. I should take this risk.

While reading ur mail… I am so happy. But I should not be that happy because I don’t know what will happen next. We just hope all in control and try hard to make it come true. I put my hope on u (how do we say it?) you are the only blablabla… (take control, take responsible, take me!)

Well, that’s some story…

Come fast here and you will see the situation and get involve in entrepreneur if you come everyday to my shop… interested??

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^_^

Monday, November 24, 2008 3:36 AM

To my dearest V,

Still cant find my datacable so i have to resort to typing.
I like voice messages better but this will also be fine :p.

Im still warm from competition today so maybe i will get a little bit sick but who knows. Lets just hope i wont get sick and everything will be fine. It was below 0 Celcius degrees today and my toes were quit cold. I was prepared for cold weatherer but finding good isolation for your feet is difficult. Annyway, we had a small fire to keep ourselfes warm during waiting for games.The bad thing is i owned everybody today on the field and most games were finished within a minute. I lost one game becouse i made a wrong decision to go for a obstacle without shooting at my opponent. Becouse of this he could get a free shot at me and luckaly he made a hit. Its quit hard to hit an opponent that is running but still a stupid action as what i did. Thats why i tought that i deserved to be second and learn for next games. Still he had a lot of luck but i heard in the car with some of my friends that the were positifly sure the winner was shot a couple of times only the bad thing is the fieldrefs gave him points as he would have won. To loose becouse of my mistake okey but to loose from other peoples mistakes hurts. Afther all i had a nice day even if it was cold and my narcis me knows i was the winner that day. I still won a medal and a cup for second place.

Also i got some more good news. Whoehoe..... I got my grades for my exams yesterday. This period i had to do 3 exams. One of plant/tree knowledge, one about microscope and plant structure, and one about plantcells and ecology. You already know i didnt pass the plant/tree exam but you didnt knew about the other two. When i did the exams i didnt had a good feeling about the two becouse i had the idee that i didnt knew any of the questions. Well i had the wrong feeling becouse i got cum laude grades. This means i got grades above 7 and im still in the running for my cum laude diploma. In Belanda this is important to have if you want to get good job or another study. Also for getting scollarships like you told me about. So im quit happy about my grades and also well motivated for next period. Alo a bit wurried about my plant/tree exam. Not sure when i have to redo it becouse i have to wait till the plants will grow leaves again (in winter the will drop from the trees).

Tommoro i dont have to go to school to take anny classes but still have an apointment with a student to discus some things. Tommoro i will look up my information to ask for a visa and send it te DEK school. Im a bit wurried about DEK school becouse i havnt heard from them since my last email. I didnt ask for annything in that email but i just send them information about my status. This has bin a few weeks ago but if they wont respond on my email tommoro i still have annother school i got contact with. No wuries there my dear.

Im also already looking for stuff that would prepare me for my gerney to Indonesia again. Also i got some new sunglasses but thats not realy important stuff. You will see them later :p.

Im also looking forward to see your new shop. Maybe you can employ this bule to work at your counter. Im quit handy with electrical stuff but dont speek your language. Is that a problem?

I also made contact this week with the international bureau. We agreed to make a apointment and he will help me to prepare my request for my visa. Like you said you were a bit wurried about me if i could arrange everything and also i am a bit wurried. I have to arange al ot of stuff thats new for me. This takas alot of time and sometimes i dont even know were to begin. This makes me sometimes a bit scared and makes me wurried. I already tried to make contact with this man but when i was searching for him i never found him at his office and also didnt knew his email adress. Last week i bumbet in to him becouse someone mentioned his name (also i didnt knew his face). I grabed my chance and emediatly asked him if he had a little bit of time. I told him about my plans and asked him if he could help me. Hey told me he had alot of experiance and was willing to help. Thank god i now have some help from a experianced person so i dont have to discover every new thing.I also think i need the help becouse next to my study aranging things for my trip takes alot of time. Also this is the first time in my life im aranging everything myself without help from my school. I think the help from this man will help me alot and also he was nice so thats a good thing.

Enough for today and speek to you tommoro my dearest.

Muuuuuaaach.

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To super V, the girl i love with all my heart

Saturday, November 15, 2008 8:02 AM

Hey dear,

I havnt opened my email box in twoo days. Finnaly got some spare time to write you something. Yesterday i also wanted to write you something but the damn thing didnt work. But here it is this basterd finally writes back :P. I was planning to writ you already hole week but so manny things and so tired when finaly home. If i got home i emediatly fall asleep on the couch (probally explaines my back pain :p). Its 1 oklock midnight and just came home. This time i didnt fel asleep on couch but went staight to the computer to type.

Manny things happend this week that i couldnt tell you with text messages. I didnt want to make you worry about small things and its hard to explain in twee sentences. Dont worry my dear nothing bad happend at least not realy that bad. I will start telling about last satterday.

Satterday night i had small excident. I tripped and hurt my back. My back is still a bit brused but just afther 15 minutes it was already getting better and i feel already great again. Also i had a small infection in my thumb and today the docter cut my finger open and cleaned it. Now he wants me to take antibiotics but you already know im against that. My mother convinced me to get them and i will start taking them tommoro. Cutting my finger open wasnt a realy nice job. He grabed a surgical knife and without telling me what his plans were he started cutting in my finger. Ouch... that hurt. Also this problem was easually solved and afther the pus was removed my finger felt much better. Except fur the wound he just made :p.

School is also taking much of my time lately. The ask us to do ridiculous tasks and the also take alot of my time. Manny report writing and artical reading and for what? nothing. Hopefully afther this weekend i will have less work to do becouse this is taking alot of my energy and afther school im to tired to do annything else. I think i also have to start taking some vitamine pills so i can keep up and get some more energie. Also i had made some things for you and want to send them to you. They are still in my house and im at my parrents but i will try to fix that this weekend. Im also currious about what you are gonna say about these things. I think you will like it.

btw, you didnt tell me yet what was your favorite colour was.

I also have bin moddeling again this week. Yesterday and this morning. Ofcourse it was fun to do but also there something went wrong. During moddeling i became unwell and at first i became dissie and afther that it became white before my eyes. Well i have never fainted in my entire life but people i know describe these as starter simptons. I started to sweat and my face was completly pale. I told the people there i needed a small brake and afther drinking a glass of wather i was already feeling better. I went to the toilet to freschen myself and i continued to work. This was yesterday. I think this became of over working and i think its a warning signal for me to take it more easy. I still have alot to do this weekend but i will try to dose it as much as possible. I have to keep thinking of my health and dont got to over worked.

Also today i got the news from the elder commision that they will give my the final desission 1st of december. I already told them thats to late for me but they said thats the date they will meet and decide. I hate the elder commission already but dont tell them that i said that to you. Im not planning to wait that long and decided that i will already start the preparations to go to indonesia. I will write the DEK school tommoro to tell them i will be going in feberuary and will ask them to write an official invitation for me. I already have the concept in english and indonesian so the only thing they have to do is change the name and date. I already decided to go to indonesia and i will no longer wait for the decission made by the elder commission. They have let me waiting already to long (also you :p) and i will just start preparing. If they give final answer in december there will be a chance that i will not make it on time with my visa so to bad for them but now i will take controll of the situation.

I mis my girlfriend and i want to see her. Thats it, thats my final answer. Period!!

Miss you verry much my dear and dont worry about my health at the moment. I already know i have to take it more easy and already started to do something about it.


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About the business idee.

Dont know how long that idee already has bin in my head and wanted to tell you. First of all its a bit of a stupid idee and also i dont know the complete way of things of your country. Its just a idee and maybe it will benafit you or others.

I was thinking. At this moment it is still rain season and you were telling me that there were less people on the street and at the plaza, right? Why not make an website of your stock? It could be an website whit your shops name were (stupid people like me) could ask questions about products and stuff you are selling. If they are looking for something they cann look it up if you have it. So they cann pick it up at your shop or afther payment you can send it to them by postoffice. You can advertise about your website at your counter and possibally if you also add the stock from your brothers and sisters counters you will have an website with enough of stuff to choose from.

There is already a flaw in this plan as i written from one of your last email that you dont have an bank account. Im also not shure about the excesabillaty of indonesian people to the internet. Now a days in belanda 90% of the peole have internet at home but 10 years ago it was still 9%. Not shure how much indonesian (Padang) people have internet at home or how frequent they use it.

In this way they can order things from your shop (and maybe others) without having to go outdoors through the rain. Dont be to harsh to me and tell me that im a idiot. Just tell me: honey, you are a sweat boy but just mind your own business :p. Let me know what you think of this idee and if such a thing is even possible. Im currious also.

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About your famaly. You told me about problems with police and lowns and stuff. To be honnest im a bit confused. The your dad part i get but the things with your brother and sis are not that clear to me. What were you trying to say and hu? swiching from shop and switching some more... Why?

Its already getting to late and realy need some sleep now. I will think of you in my dreams and have fanasy that im already in padang.

Love you so much my dearest Via. So much!!!

Xx

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RE: sorry

Friday, November 7, 2008 4:59 PM

These past days i had the idee of loosing you. This was disturbing me and i couldnt sleep. Reading this mail and the reactions of these past weeks i think i already lost you. This gives me no hope for the future becouse even when the eldercommision will agree im thinking "what next". My feelings went up and down these past weeks from yes i do want make this work and from this is hopeless. I think this situation wont get better and my feelings getting less by the day. I cant see what you are doing there in padang and contact these past week has bin verry awkward. I dont know where your mind is at the moment but the last thing i remembered you said that you wont keep your heart any more. If you wont keep your heart that means you dont trust me. All i could ask of you was trust becouse at that moment it was all i could give. You accused me of making no secrifises at all and instead you were making all the secrifises. Do you know this is true? Are you 100% sure that you are the only one?Still i cant give you anything at this moment becouse i dont have any news from the eldercommision. They told me that they would decide before this thursday and let me know the same day. Even today i havnt heard from them since. Is this normal? Yes it is quit commen. Why? I dont know and i cant do anything about it. Did this happen before? Yes it did becouse it happend lat summer also. Why? I also dont know. The only thing i can do is whait some more and ask again this monday.

I dont realy know how to close down this email becouse there is alot going on in my mind right now. You already said it and im thinking it but maybeit is better to let go of each other. At this moment i dont see our relationship work becouse it is getting worse by the day for both of us. Correct me if im wrong honey abou all of this but this is how i see the situation at the moment. It hasnt get better since it got worse and at this pase i cant wait another fw months to se you. I think i would already have lost you by then becouse you wont keep your heart for me.

Let me know what you think so i wont look like a total fool.From your dearest geart.

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I want to ask you something

Thursday, October 30, 2008 11:52 PM

Hey Via,

First i will start of with the usual. These past days were tence but i do my normal things still. Thanks for sending me he good luck wish this wensday. I did screwed up my presentation becouse i couldnt keep my head clear while presentating. Still i got an 8 on my presentation but i could get higher score. <-- the teacher told me i had natural flare sow it overcompensated the missing information. Good thing i still have flare.

Also study takes alot of effert to keep my head while reading. I keep getting distracted becouse my mind slips away and start thinking about you. I will manage but it takes alot of effort.

A friend asked me to take pictures of him and his brassband this saterday. As a joke i asked him what i will get from it and he answerd that i could listen to the performance for free. I said thats a big reward listening for one and a half hour to screaching noices of a brassband :p Of course i still agreed but asked not to use the pictures for commercial reasons. I think it will be a fun night out and also nice to take pictures of a friend performing his hobby :-).

Also two of my sis have their birthday next week so while study i also have to fiend pressants. No time to think about that but i will come up with somthing usefull.

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Now the problem part that gives us all the burdon at the moment.

I want to ask you something becouse i think it will be verry important for future. If in february we will find out that 'this is it' can you wait some more time? What im trying to say is that you already told me you dont want to wait long but the problem is i still have to finish my study first. This will take some few years longer and can you wait that long. I cant come verry often to indonesia becouse if i want to go i need finance from scholarships. I asked my studycoach and this internship in february is the only one were it is possible to do uproad. I can try to arange to study for one semester in indonesia but again im pending on the desission of the eldercommision and the indonesian school ofcourse. Also this will not benafit my study so overall i have to study longer. i realy would like you to think about this one becouse i think its important.

There is annother problem i read in your last email (actualy also before). You are having doubts and that makes the situation difficult. I didnt want to hurt you and maybe love makes you do stupid things. At least it happens to me alot. I know you are already hurt and also i am. Im still hurt becouse of what you said to me and to who you compared me with. At first i was shocked but now im deply hurt. Also i have doubts on you but will not make desisions based on anger.

Im sorry to made you feel hurt and im sorry that i cant go on december. Im deeply sorry but its hard to make up for what has already happend. I did the best i could for making my plans real but im human too. I did made mistakes and will correct them if so. Im still the guy that you know from back indonesia and im not some kind of ass thats fooling around and playing games. I dont want to play games and you dont deserve to be played with, atleast not in this kind of way. Lets just say im sorry honey and ask of you to rethink if your heart is still there? Be honnest to your self and to me. Thats all im asking of you right now.

To my dearest Via

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