RE: islam preface 1

Saturday, October 25

Hey honey,

I will read it tommoro becouse to tired right now and realy wat to sleep. Always fall asleep on couch and wake up all stiff. About your previous mail. First of all cheating is not in my nature and i havent cheated a gf before. Actually i think a also cant cheat. If i would cheat i couldnt look my gf straight in the eyes anny more of guild. I dont have anny respect for cheating and couldnt bear to see someone get hurt by it. It happend to me several times that a gf cheated on me or i had the feeling that she cheated on me. Trust me, it hurts when you find out. If someone would cheat on me or i have the feeling of being cheated on will mean i cant trust you anny more and if there is no trust there will also be no relationship.Well about the angry part. I can get angry of cours but alwais try to controll of this feeling. I always give short time to rethink and loose of anger before i act. Sometimes need big hug when angry (calms me down faster ). Never hurt a lady when angry and never grabed tight on arm when angry. Why? dont like to hurt someone even when girl would try to hit me. Maybe will try to grab hand then but thats self deffence (cant annything happen to my pretty face :p). I only fisical hurt boys when they attack me. I never attack first but im not affraid to hit back when attacked (im still boy to). Im always in controll when angry becouse im controll freak. I had some fights with boys but always keep my head straight to think and stay calm. This makes me dangerous when fighting becouse rage will not take over and i can antisipate. It also kept me allive in a situation becouse offender had knife.No honey, you dont have to be afraid when im angry becouse even when angry im still resonable and open for solving conversation. Im not sure if you are when angry but will see about that one later. My last exgf was very jealous person and got angry at me many times. Becouse of jealousy or just becouse of small thing. Sometimes i event knew why she got angry to me but i learned alot from her anger. She was a emotional person and could get angry to me out of the blue. I know you are emotional person to but not as bad as she was. Her flipping emotions were the wurst i ever encountert in my life and still i managed to keep my head up. This will make me confert to know i can also deal with your emotions.

Becouse of many sis i know more of wommen then normall man do. Also i have female cheracterisics. I like shopping alot (even when broke . Bad quallity of me, i know). I can shop for hours without getting tired and give good advice too. All gf liked to shop with me honey. Trust me you will also like it :p. Most of the time i know how wommen feel and know when to listen instead of giving advice. I also have bad quility becouse sometimes im to honnest. I can get angry on small things when under pressure. Never on people (thats why they say im good material for teaching) but on things im working on. It has bin already a long while that i became angry on small material things but i think its becouse of loosing alot of my perfectionism. Normally when i feel anger ill just hit something that cant break when somebody is not looking . It will ease myself down realy fast and gives releave too. When i know i have too much tension all do something that will releave my stress. Like taking a bath/shower or do one of my many hobbys. Ill just take some time for myself and all stress will be gone fast.Will i fit your profile to get fed up? Lets see, not on time/late: What i learned from indonesia is not to push yourself to be on time everywere especially padang. Its impossible to estimate time and also im not realy good in estimating time. This will happen of course but i will try my best not to. Cant let a pretty girl like you wait to long cant i?. Maybe i have to take that one back becouse have bin already to many times late with you . But i tryed my best to be on time and that what counts not sure if you think the same on that subject. Lazyness? Im not a lazy person so nope not afraid for his one. jealousy, also not afraid for that one. I cant commit rerationship when im jealous becouse if i am that means im not trusting you. Also im not realy jealous person. If someone is better then me thats what it is. I cant be good at everything. If somebody is better than me in something im good of then i just have to work harder. I know there are always people better then me at something. Thats life and i have to deal with it. For stupid, i think i will fit this profile do i? :p (let you be the judge of that). Slowly, i think i will fit this profile. One of the things i know of myself im not a realy fast person. Well i can run fast and have fast reflexes but performing tasks will take me more time than other people. Like i said in a voice record a long time ago. I was born with the umbilical cord (thing that connects the baby with placenta) arround my neck and it almost chocked me to death. Becouse of this i can only use one brainpart at the time. This makes me a bit slower than normall people. In return i take more care in doing stuff so in the end it will look nicer (not always of course). I think the last ones are a message to me personally so i will not answer those of course :p. Thats it for now also. I will now start writing the other stuff and stop with this long reply on your mail .

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Pictures!!! Jeeee... finaly i got some pictures of my house. Just the living room becouse the rest is not descent yet. Only want to send you the verry best honey but you will have to wait for some time. First have to do exams and then i will redecorate rest of rooms. Its already my house for almost one and a half year but never took the time to make it mine. I started but never finnished till now of course. Why? Before i never felt home, i didnt had central heating system (winters here are cold and long), got fight with upper neighbors ( the are dumb and selfish people), to bussy, etc, etc. Now i brought some stuff back from indonesia so it will feel more comfort then before. I lid the candels and put on my lamp before taking the pictures. Emediatly the room felt warm and comfort (finally ). I totally redecorated it and its almost finnished. I just need to personalise it a bit more with small belongings and daily stuff. Hope you will like the room baby and i will tell in each picture what i did.

Pic 1:
I hanged up the two paintings that i once bougth in Czech republic and also put down the two waiang (probally not correct term) on my english closet. Before i could hang down the two paintings i had to build a hanging construction from a old curtain hanger and some wire. Also the cable on the floor had to be rewired properly. What still needs to be don is to get rid of the ugly stone tiles. I will try to build wood and curved iron constuction around it and then carve the wood with figures.

Pic 2:
Rewired everything behind tv. Needed to be don becouse it was a big bulk of wires all stuck to eachother. Couldne recognize what was going were. Hanged up lamp and batik bainting. Also same story with curtain rail. Made new frame for batik painting. What needs to be don? Get rid uf ugly table (still have to fix and recell). I have to put somkind of tape on the windows. Just the first 45 cm so nobody can look inside that easily anymore. Its somekind of big tape you can stick on it with a patern on it and it will bend light so you cant see clair trough it. Already bought one but not pretty enough. Ha, to bad.

Pic 3/4:
Same pics as one and two but from the other side of the room.

Just received text message from a girl i met a few months ago. She tells me she just have to wait for two more weeks to crush my skull :p. I met her at the last medieval fair and she also knows how to fight swords. So i said we could have friendly fight the next fair. She said oke and i told her i will be carefull since she was a girl (i made joke). Well she told me that it was oke to be carefull for a girl but since she was lady she will kick my but (she made joke back :p). Well i said lets see about that and now we got a duel. Hope she will not kick my but becouse i havnt don swordfighting for a while :p. Luckaly she will be wearing steel helmet so nobady could see she is girl. Just like i told you about supair :p. I will tel you if i win or not (maybe if i will lose i will not tell :p). Also i have duel with a good friend of mine so i will see if i can win that one but dont think so. I was quit good at swordfighting for a while and people told me i was one of the best within that group but havnt practised for a year already so my skills will be verry low again. Well yust see.

Okey honey, this is it for now and hope to hear from you tommoro. I will go to bed and have sweat dreams about you. Always dream about me in indonesia (makes my heart go boom boom :p). Love ya,Xx ps. candels in my livingroom wer lid for you my dear. Love you, love you, love you love you you love you many times muuuuuuuaaaaaaahhhhh