never been this worst

Sunday, October 26, 2008 9:26 AM

good morning my dear...

wish u in a good condition and fit any moment. right now i am in my worst feeling. i hope this is the worst and never get more than this. event so, i always want to let u now my condition, including warning not to reply u or not to send any news. i have bad feeling yesterday and almost speechless. dont worry, i just have to calm my feeling, just need time. i still love u honey. i didnt sleep over the night, and also have nightmare, in my dream, my sister drinks poison as she cant survive to have burden in life. what a very scary dream and i scream alot that i found her like that. and then i woke up at 3am, i try to send u message, but there is problem with phone, it was pending. i dont know is it the phone or ur number. it is still in question, because i try to use another phone different from before and have to check whether it works or there is problems.

yesterday is saturday, so crowded, but i didnt earn any. i know why and its ok.

what i got yesterday is i have almost three broken phones. the one has short circuit i guess, cos when i put the battery, it was so hot like ironing. the other i can use for call, it directly turn off coz the battery is so low. the other one is trying to send message all the time and fail even the card is inactive. hmmmm... bad situation.

about how i get angry; u get me wrong for one case. jealosy. i am angry for jealosy means. i will angry if i am jealous to u not u are to me. u are handsome and has so many fans :P so i should watch out if someone touch u. hehe... i will be angry if u react to like it :P

honey, i still get headache this morning, coz i didnt have any sleep till this morning. i want to call u yesterday but the balance is not enough to talk long hours, so i think i will call u next time and refill it first. i am sorry not to tell u last night. i still have the other problem in this house and bla bla bla. xould not tell u alot, that is my own problem. family problem. so i can not concern just to ur message or my broken phone.

honey, next week you will have school again and the second next week u will have exam. i should not suggest u to study, shouldnt i? just do ur best. i am here always thinking of u.

what elese.... wheat else..?still want to talk to u, want to be with u, want to touch ur hair,