1st 3pages: long story

Thursday, September 4, 2008 10:43 PM

Hi Geart, my lovely sweetheart.

I need to tell you that this lately I don’t go to plaza frequently. Coz, the shop belongs to my father will not be released by hendra’s gf in this two months. So I have no gut to learn how to sell phone that long about more than 6 months. I will not wait, so I plan to do something else. But not yet found. Every time I want to take some kind of job, I always compare it to my bro and sister’s earn. They earn a lot. If I take a job at the office, maybe I will just earn about 10 % to 20 % of theirs. So that makes me sometimes lazy to start. I just really want to open a new shop too. Hehehe… I bet I can earn more…

My friend just called and suggested to write and look up the bookseller what is the famous things come up right now. Actually I have that skill also, to be a writer. but I have an obstacle, it is mood. When writing half of it, I got stuck and then I postpone to finish it until unpredictable time. Puuuffff.. what a bad habit. I had experience, when I wrote a book and finished about 3 chapters, then suddenly there was a friend asking me to write a song for his band. Then I did it and submitted the songs, but I already had left my book and forget it till today. Even I have no mood to write it, also have no idea. Very stupid.

Now I try to stay home, doing something on my notebook. As you see right now I send you more mail. Because I want to discover my mood of writing. Maybe I will get some ideas while talking to you.

I bet you will read this mail, always. :P

Now, I am gonna share you our daily Muslim activities in fasting month. Just to let you know a bit.

Here everyday of course we fast from 4 am to 6 pm, time changes according to the area. They look at the moon to decide the time.

We do not eat, do not touch, control emotion, do not angry, keep big nice month :P, hold desire, even for husband and wife they should wait until night to make a baby :P.

We don’t eat; it is to remind us that a lot of poor do not eat too and you will know how it feels hunger. But we will not get sick because of it, on the contrary we will be healthy because all activities in a month become discipline and we do it in the same time everyday.

We do not touch our non Muhrim.

Muhrim is blood relation like family, you can only touch family, you may not touch out of the list. That’s will be called non Muhrim. also you may not touch your gf. It is a test for you to control your desire.

If you break all the rules while you are fasting, you already break your fast and means nothing.

At night, we usually pray Tarawih (solat tarawih), special worship in fasting month, we will get more and more bless if we do a lot of nice things in this month.

This is the month to forgive and forget. That’s why every year, each of us being reminded of our mistakes and has to ask apology to other person. and me too, I beg any person to forgive me by saying like this

“ Tomorrow is fasting month, I want to start my new life as a pure life, if I did mistake to you ever, pls forgive me… thx”

Some people also make it into a poem and song, many kind of apology sentence to express their apology. Early fasting month and ending fasting month become trend of forgiving. Provider will be happy of increasing income in sending messages. J

There is a special moment in fasting month, I am not sure when, even no one knows, but they will wait and guess when is the date. If you ask something on the day you find at a certain night, God will give to you whatever you ask. And this is a promise.

This is not an impossible thing. It already happens for thousand years. It is the same to when you get fallen star from the sky, as if your request and wish will be given. So, to get this moment, usually Muslim has a lot of worship and wish about 5-3 days before the end fasting month if they don’t want to miss it.

After this one month fasting, we will have Lebaran Day, like you celebrate Christmas. It is to celebrate our victory that we can pass this late one month and can feel what anybody feel even poor. also tobe patient, honest (lie is a big sin in Ramadhan). Just lie at the other month, hehehe.

We also have another big day such as Hari Raya Haji. Pilgrimage to Mecca . This is when Muslim all over the world who can able to go to Mecca will gather there. There are a lot of great thing they will find there. Every single Muslim wants to do it. It is a pride to have name Haji or Hajjah, as a title of graduation of going to Mecca . This is not because they have money to go there. But, to be there, first of all you must be a good Muslim, otherwise you don’t deserve to go there.

Good means, at least you do 5 times praying a day and take care of poor, family and use your money for the good things.

There are such a lot of thing inside Islam. But ordinary people who do not learn to be the real muslim is just like a person without a religion. They already born with that religion and some of them never care what is the Islam exactly even though they are Muslim. So, it is not strange to find Muslim with non Muslim behavior. Like also my brother and sister, sometimes they do not pray. Me too, sometimes it is so hard to do this 5 times a day, how could I do more than that. But I always compare to my friends who are success already. They walk on their lives with the bless of God. they do this 5 times praying, also read Koran, also do night praying about 2am. And they really get the true happy life, comfortable, and a lot of money.

That what makes me always remember to go back to my religion. I believe if I do what He asks me to do, I will be blessed and get everything I want. If there is a problem, I will just talk to Him and ask Him to finish it.

As I said, my life is up and down but I don’t take it too much, coz I give it back to Him and beg Him to make it easy for me… so, my life becomes more beautiful.

This is going to be the long story. I am in my mood of writing right now, so as far as I am thinking, I will write.

I already spent 2 hours for this. J

You have to share time for studying and reading my mail. Hahahha

Well, talking about me… you still have time to read. I make it three hours and you will just read it few minutes. I will cook for hours and you will just eat it few minutes and say “honey, it is tasteless… I don’t like it“

Yeaa… back to the topic, talking about me… I just look back at my pictures. Thousand pictures, some has been deleted, that my face looks so nice, smile and smile, only short list photos with the anger or dislike moment. Mostly with the happy face and smiling one. That’s why I should thank God, that I must have those beautiful moments in life, that makes everyone else jealous on me. :P

Oya, about the plan in December…

Do not plan to stay with me, because it is not allowed, as we are a couple. But if you are just Hendra’s friend, our family will be so glad to accept you home. We are welcome to pleased friends at home. This is a suggestion, but I don’t know if Hendra will offer you to stay, that is his problem to my parents :P. good for me. Hehehe…

If you have no place to stay, we’ll find a rent room as boarding house. It is not that expensive. For the nice one is about 300thou rupiah per month. I’ll find it for you…

Geart, so many persons doubt on us. On our future. But I don’t. I have decided to take care of you till the end of my effort to make you stay with me. I wish you are the last one for me, but I give it back to God, if you are the one, God will show us the way honey… I love you so much.