RE: unfair

Sunday, September 21, 2008 5:14 AM

You are crazy sending me a video like that. I like it, like it, like it, like it,iiiiiii like it... realy allot. Yes i know that im bussy all the time and not replying as often. If write email to you it takes long time to write. Im not that well in writing. I like voice better becouse its easier for me.
I dont hava datacable yet but my old phone has voice record functions. It can record up to 3 minutes so is not much but something. Its hard to get datacable becouse we dont have allot of shops how sell phone pars and stuff .

Today i helped my mother with decorating her new builing. It was realy fun but we took long time discussing things. We are both used to tell people what to do and are both not used to get orders. Becouse of this we had long dicussions about how and what to do. It took some time but we finnished the job and made allot of compromises. Helping my mother today made me remember how much we are the same. We both like to keep in controll and take charge of the situation. Its a good quallity but not if youput us in one room and ask us to do something together.

Also i have good news. I already gained almost 2 killo´s. I didnt start raining yet but i think it was becouse of the food in Indonesia. Im not used to it so thats why i lost so much waight.

To get back at that video again. There is something i want to tell you. First i want to say i realy like your new clothes and cant wait to see them for real. From the collers of the clothes i can see you have allot of emotions. In one of the first times i have seen you, you told me that you where an emotional person but couldnt see that in your choice of collers. Your collers told me that you are relax person in control and ellegant. You got me a little bit confused but watching your collers just now makes sense. You have red, green and more. Its also nice to see you being you. How you move, act, talk and do crazy things. It makes me realize how much i mis you my darling. Whatching that video made my eyes get a little bit blurr becouse of the fluids running thru it. There is still allot i want to tell you but first i need to find a dataable.

Im not sure there is much more to tell you about me. I already told you that i like to do busness, im creative, a little bit dominant person, like to tell someboddy els what to do, likes to be in control of himself and situations, im a deardevil, like dangerous stuff, etc. Oke there is still stuff i can tel about my self. For example there are some things that happen in my live that realy changed me as a person. I will tell you the sorys later on voice record.

Also people tell me that im diferent now since im back from Indonesia. I think allot different about some things now and also i feel like im a different person. Some friends tell me that they get the vibe from me that im just passing through. They tell me that im here (in Belanda of cours) but im not realy here. I start smiling when i tell about my experiences in Indonesia. Also they can see that im homesick to Indo. What they say is the truth and im feeling the same thing but i didnt know it was so easy to read from my actions.
I think allot of how my life would look like in Indonesia and how my lifewould look like living with you. I cant realy tell what future will bring me but we will see soon enough. I hope our relationship will work out and my subcontience actually already knows. To be honnest it dasnt realy make me scared but makes me worry a little. What if... I dont realy know what to say about this one but i will do some other time. Dont worry baby i still love you allot but i have some inner strugles i have to concer first. Maybe it beter to live now and dont worry about the future right now. I hope i didnt confuse you right now and if so please tell me.

My klock passed 12 oklock already so i have te get sleeping. Ilove you with all my hart and realy want tograb hold of you soon. I miss you allot and you are in mymind still.


Xx,

Geart.