Re: I want to ask you something

Friday, October 31, 2008 10:48 AM

my dearest geart,

if u want to ask me whether i love u, yes! i love u so much.

if u ask me to wait for few years, okay. i will wait.

if u want me to be ur wife, yes i do.

is it important?

i dont know honey, event so... what ever you ask me you get the positive thing and cheers ur life, it still about u.

what about me? you said you care to me, but u have made me doubt on u lately. lets say its not lately, it has been long times. i just find out this last few days. i just wake up. via wake up! this is just a dream. actually i though this dream will come true by ur effort. and i find out that effort is worthless. you are not in control. also about the finance. i dont blame u if u are not rich. but it seemed it was easy for u to decide to go abroad like ur family does. you are right if this takes longer we will end up loosing. so we dont have to make it longer. i have felt that lost. headache all the time. eventhough u can come on feb, finally its just two months. then i have to wait for several years. in that several years you said is about 1.5 years more or 2. i could say its okay if you can promise me something real. but i see there is nothing real you can not control. dont push me to say we have to end this now. i will never say to break up. i just want u to wait what is the eldercommission decision. let me now if i can call u today.

i have another staff starting today. hope my days better. eventhough i feel i am in the jungle without knowing anyone just u. in my hand, my phone, in my eyes in my life. i will try to survive.